Your chart is not a depressive natal chart - quite the contrary. It would be expected to be upbeat, vigorous, vital, optimistic. The markers are quite clear.martin88 wrote: ↑Sun Feb 25, 2018 12:27 pmI wonder which part of my horoscope talks about depression/negative thoughts? I was really a happy go lucky child then I became a teen and life has been a miserable suffering safe for 2013-2014 when I felt great on an antidepressant. Curiosly that AD no longer works, nor do others I’ve been prescribed. Late 2013-early 2014 was the only good moment in my life since I became a teen and succumed to mental ilness (they still can’t diagnose what’s wrong with me but constant rumminsting is a sign sth has broken down). Sheltered life, adrenals, thyroid, I have lost hope of ever finding out why are my positive emotions so weak or non existant why my negative ones are hyperactive. No one has told me what changed when I was 13.
At most, it is your nature to feel things very strongly - the Cancer Sun and angular Moon, for example, plus the visceral nature of the Sun-Mars-Jupiter etc.
The only thing depressive, despite being 0°00' orb, is the very minor Moon-Saturn semi-sextile. I mentioned this before, but I'm still not inclined to take it as far weaker than Moon's opposition to the angular Jupiter.
So... I'd turn the question around. Did something specific happen? Was there an event that was traumatic or turned your world-view around some way? If your birth time is anywhere accurate (even within an hour either way), I wouldn't change my basic read of it.
So... everything was fine until 2001, yes? There were, of course, hormone changes; is there a close family member who suffers depression? Something inherited and biochemical that puberty could have triggered? (Even that, I think, should show in the chart.) Your 2001 Solar Return is harsh - Saturn-Pluto across the horizon, plus Mars. Moon at Midheaven. It could easily be the chart of a traumatic loss or separation (or even of an invasive sexual molestation... just guessing from the symbolism). Did something occur?
Transits don't show anything in particular for that time, aside from the Solar Return.