I had the most unveiling experience of my life the weekend we murdered Karen.
20 years ago or so Karen would not have had the right to choose her own passing. She would have been forced into life prolonging proceedings to capitalize on her existence.
I am so grateful that those days are gone and that ignorance had been brought to light on the human spirit, on Soul and matter itself.
In helping Karen cross over into the spirit world to take her place with all of our ancestors......all the way back to the first of our kind, the first torus/mouth/butthole that our branch of life forms .......I recieved a true allie in the spirit world.
I dont think most people experience the other side. I think that most all of humanities senses have been dulled down and that they are completely unaware of all the gazillion things going on *right around them* that they are so completely blind too. I think that a good term for a moon Neptune Jupiter conjunction is Cilia, like a hair folical....an acutely sensitive rod that detects the micro movements of certain specific vibrations given off by other things in the environment.
That's what I feel when people lie to me. I feel the itty bitty discrepancies in their molecular movement. In the voice or body language or aura. Your body knows a lie, there are tests of strength that show how your life force and vitality drop when you lie.
WT F indeed though
My landlord's are offering me 1 thousand to be out in two weeks. But they say they understand these things take time. I understand they want to capitalize on the market. They could get 250k all day maybe more, people are buying stupid right now.
I want to share an experience I had swimming in the spirit world when Karen Passed and I battled between not knowing if I was the product of a horrid mother and father who didn't want me and were self obsessive addicts, or the strange star crossed lovers of my sister and her sweet young love.
In my past I would often call beseechingly to my mother in the spirit world to give me words of love and encouragement, I would ask her to play a song on my music player, with the chance of any song or genre coming up from my millions of options. I felt empowered to feel meaning and connection.
But there I was, remembering events from my past and now seeing them as they truly were, my mother being mean and nasty, and Karen being loving.
I was so confused and felt like I was being ripped apart inside not knowing if I was the product of grief or grace.
My soul ripped open as I sobbed Who The F u c k am I to my music player.
And as I heard the first chord,
I broke down in a gazillion pieces of salt water
If my sister had been my mother then this boy would have been my father, Daniel was the love of her life.
I didn't know what it was like to have an ancestor in the spirit world who actually loved me. I was delusional before. Karen is right there, I see her and feel her and it is such a freeing experience.
I will never feel the need to divine or ask my mother to play me song again.
But please understand me in that they are there watching seeing knowing and that you can't hide or run away, and just because you cant see them doesnt mean they dont know everything. It seems like people dont realize that we are totally enmeshed and emersed in worlds upon worlds upon worlds, all around us like a big fish bowl and we are swimming in it all.