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Last Wednesday I woke up to really sentimental dream that made my tears flow bountifully—as if a whole dam of tears inside me was demolished by the pressure.
It seemed like a science experiment to observe what happens when a baby is put inside a closed, small container. The lid of the container was transparent though.
My mother (why she?) put the baby in the container and left. I observed the baby crying and yelling, sympathised and took out the baby from the container to comfort it. The baby looked weak, as if it suffered from many other experiments.
As I was comforting the baby, the baby seemed hungry, so I tried to breastfeed the baby, only to realise that physically I can't do so. My sister (or some assistant who looked similarly to her) smiled and offered her hands so she can breastfeed the baby instead. I was devastated and disappointed at myself because I couldn't help the baby when I really wanted to, just because of mere biological gender. I cried heavily in the dream and woke up. For a brief moment I forgot what the dream was so I tried to recall it again and soon after, I cried in real life too, even when I was in the bathroom my tears didn't cease to flow.
That dream provoked all the indignation in me that I should've been born as a female instead, who knows who different my life would've been. It also increased my desire of having a baby.
I checked my transits, nothing really emotional was shown. But my SLR which occurred around 3~ish am that day (before I had that dream) had Moon partile on the descendant in mundo and Venus closely (but not partile) on the IC and Nadir.
Could this SLR be responsible for my dream? The symbolisms seem perfect—Moon on descendant for the need to nurture someone, Venus on IC for intense, deep, hidden feelings.
I expected this SLR to be something like "receiving affection/attention" (especially from someone who I want to receive affection from) but looks like it manifested itself as this instead. I'm still in this SLR though, so let's see what else happens? (Update 10/05/2017: No, nothing much happened, besides feeling the need to merge into someone else, and to nurture and receive nurture.)