Mixed feelings

[James Condor]

I think strangers have mixed feelings about me I general. Of course, I don’t know the people I don’t know so it’s hard to say for sure what they’re thinking/feeling. And I suppose it’s generally true those that know you have a more full understanding of who you are in each sense. The thing is though, even my family hasn’t seen me intoxicated in certain environments and doesn’t know how I am when I’m on drugs or alcohol. Complete strangers have seen me more in those states. And my friends.
One thing for sure though - strangers have to know I’m authentic. When they leave mixed or not, they must admit that . What in my chart shows this?

[Veronica]

In my expierence human beings live most days in a cocktail of mixed feelings. Its rare to have prolonged static focused singular feelings. The people who know you best, who have expierenced the range of feelings you have understand your not just a happy guy or a serious guy or a dreamy guy. Strangers in a bar who see you drunk and laughing and gaving a good time are only aware of that side of your complex human nature. In my expierence those moments when we exhibit a forceful all encompassing feeling like joy, and a stranger see that we run the risk of being pigeon holed or type cast in thier mind and when the stranger tries tobecome a friend and runs up against your human nature to be diverse and have a range of feelings they resist and struggle sometimes to see that you are so much more then you seemed at first.
I run up against peoples stereotyping and restrictive ways all the time. Ive got a pretty shocking look about me I suppose. I have a nice mars Uranus aspect though that lets me release and shock and awe them when need be.

[James Condor]

Hmm. I try to take people as a blank canvas unless they smell really bad or are disabled
I need my focus to search the soul and odor ruins that. I do tend to block out distractions as long as I can.
But yeah some are trying to ruin others fun

[Veronica]

Everyone is disabled and smelly in a way.

[Avshalom Binyamin]

Drugs and alcohol reduce inhibition, so you are more expressive of your thoughts and feelings drunk, and people respond to you more strongly then--positively or negatively--because they see more of what's going on with you.

If they are sober, or prefer sobriety in others, they may on balance have more of a negative response to you, even if you are being a little more authentic then if you were sober and inhibited. For example, I find it very hard to be around drunk people. And while I smoke weed daily, I don't really like to be around stoned people very much.

I would look into your chart to see where Saturn is at play, and then you will see which areas are being unmasked by getting drunk or high. In my chart, Saturn is conjunct my MC, and loosely conjunct Jupiter. So for me, it's just generally disinhibiting, and I'm pretty cheerful in altered states. No specific aspect of my personality seem particularly highlighted.

[Veronica]

Never thought about the Saturn aspect in regards to being high or drunk. Makes a lot of sence and IME I can see as true.
Thank you for sharing it.