Deadly frustration

[sotonye]

I focus a lot I think on the good stuff in my chart but don’t give much attention to the bad. This isn’t completely unreasonable, i don’t know anyone who’d say I’m unpleasant, but I think it’s important to consider that that doesn’t mean I can’t be, and it’s probably meaningful to understand when I have been and why. There have been instances, normally years apart, of absolute homicidal anger flowing out from the center of my person, it happens so quickly, an absolute intolerance of an offense and the wish that the offender would simply die. What In my chart makes me this way? It happens so rarely that I don’t think about it, but I think it is potentially a serious danger

[SteveS]

Sotonye wrote and asked:

There have been instances, normally years apart, of absolute homicidal anger flowing out from the center of my person, it happens so quickly, an absolute intolerance of an offense and the wish that the offender would simply die. What In my chart makes me this way? It happens so rarely that I don’t think about it, but I think it is potentially a serious danger

Easy answer for the Cosmobiologist: A Direct Midpoint of Sun/Pluto=Mars 0,00!

...ruthlessness...

[sotonye]

Easy answer for the Cosmobiologist: A Direct Midpoint of Sun/Pluto=Mars 0,00!

...ruthlessness...

Hey Steve, this sounds about right lol thank you for your insight here

[Jim Eshelman]

There have been instances, normally years apart, of absolute homicidal anger flowing out from the center of my person, it happens so quickly, an absolute intolerance of an offense and the wish that the offender would simply die. What In my chart makes me this way? It happens so rarely that I don’t think about it, but I think it is potentially a serious danger

There are several things very basic in the chart that show this potential. They key is that you say these events are "normally years apart" - not frequent, but abrupt and savage when they occur.

For starter's you're an Aries. Usually Aries is too controlled for this kind of thing but hardly beyond pent-up violent rage. The strongest things in your chart speak of considerable frustration tolerance (the angular Taurus Moon opposite Jupiter, both aspecting Venus, for example), though you have aspects known for poor frustration tolerance as well (such as Mercury-Pluto).

Of considerable importance for occasional eruptions of this severity is that you have a moderately foreground Mars that not only is in mundane square to Pluto but is in Cancer, its fall. Mars in Cancer people have to work to hold private demons at bay but cling to old wounds and therefore can become angry, acting out, selfish, and retaliatory from old mistreatment.

[sotonye]

There are several things very basic in the chart that show this potential. They key is that you say these events are "normally years apart" - not frequent, but abrupt and savage when they occur.

For starter's you're an Aries. Usually Aries is too controlled for this kind of thing but hardly beyond pent-up violent rage. The strongest things in your chart speak of considerable frustration tolerance (the angular Taurus Moon opposite Jupiter, both aspecting Venus, for example), though you have aspects known for poor frustration tolerance as well (such as Mercury-Pluto).

Of considerable importance for occasional eruptions of this severity is that you have a moderately foreground Mars that not only is in mundane square to Pluto but is in Cancer, its fall. Mars in Cancer people have to work to hold private demons at bay but cling to old wounds and therefore can become angry, acting out, selfish, and retaliatory from old mistreatment.

Sorry for the late reply Mr. E, have not been feeling well emotionally. Mars in cancer hits the nail on the head and I wash I wasn’t that way, I’m not sure how to handle mistreatment without eventually blowing up. How does everyone else do it?

[Jim Eshelman]

I handle it by not abiding mistreatment, usually by not entering into situations or longterm connections where I'm mistreated.

[sotonye]

I handle it by not abiding mistreatment, usually by not entering into situations or longterm connections where I'm mistreated.

After mistreatment I keep trying with the same person and trusting they can change but I have to no longer do this. Thank you

[Jim Eshelman]

That's the error: Expecting people to change.