What is happening in my life?

[ChangeMaker0806]

Hi!

I was hoping someone could assist me with any information about what astrology says. I guess mainly about what the rest of this year has in store for me mainly related to career/school and home life. I would greatly appreciate any help!

My information is:

DOB: August 25, 1994
Location of Birth: Teaneck, NJ
Time of birth: 11:10 AM

Current location: Plantation, Broward County, FL

Thank you!

[Jim Eshelman]

I was hoping someone could assist me with any information about what astrology says. I guess mainly about what the rest of this year has in store for me mainly related to career/school and home life. I would greatly appreciate any help!

My information is:
DOB: August 25, 1994
Location of Birth: Teaneck, NJ
Time of birth: 11:10 AM
Current location: Plantation, Broward County, FL

Welcome to Solunars. Let's start with a survey of the natal chart so that we know who we're talking to. (This will take me a few minutes to work up. It will be in the next response.)

[Jim Eshelman]

These notes on your Sidereal Natal Horoscope are provided for your reference and study. They are not a full interpretation of your birth chart; rather, they are building blocks from which a full interpretation can be built. (Because this isn’t the main thing you requested, I’ve only hit highlights, ignoring more subtle factors.)

Each factor listed below contributes to your character. These paragraphs may repeat or contradict each other. (We all have contradictions.) I encourage you to read through these notes, feeling your way through the interweaving ideas and reflecting on what you know of yourself. The paragraphs are brief: I have sought to pack in everything essential, to use few words to imply much more. Not every phrase will apply. Some will be more important than others; but the gist of each section should clearly reflect truth about you.

Character is destiny. Who you are determines the life that is yours to unfold. “Know thyself” is the key.

You are a LEO with a PISCES style, costumed as a LIBRA.

ANGULAR PLANETS
Jupiter conjunct Eastpoint (0°20')
Positive, optimistic, oriented to the good and qualitative. Authoritative, strives for expertise and leadership. Unusually lucky. Aspires to (enjoys) life of leisure and its perks (seeks to improve self and conditions). Generous, congenial, tolerant, good-humored, kind. Needs esteem and inclusion (usually is well received; can be overly role-conscious). Responds to cultural totems, heritage, tradition, social graces, social and ceremonial rituals. Champion of justice and fair play. (Air of superiority, judgmental, greedy, envious; making own luck through shady ethics or crime.)

MOON in PISCES
Most truly themselves when being someone else. Dramatizes a personal fiction; “big fish” confidence (self-important, airs?). Love having a “secret side.” Divas. Emotionally driven (haunted). Fascinated with the unknown. Religious thinking style. Faith, commitment to beliefs or vision. Judgmental. Hardened personal reality (stuck patterns).

Moon square Uranus (0°26')
A specie of genius (intellectually rebellious, roving, curious, investigative) is bursting to express itself – not wholly comfortable accepting outside guidance, often wondering why others don’t recognize its nature. Inquisitive, original, futuristic, seeking novelty and needing variety (“will try anything twice”). Free-spirited: psychologically lives outside of convention; but subject to tensions and stiffness from emotional stress.

Moon square Neptune (1°33')
Sensitive – often too much! Tunes into others on an empathic (psychic?) level: can be deeply understanding, genuinely sympathetic, but also emotionally (psychically) vulnerable, easily wounded with abiding fears of rejection. Self-defense through avoidance (non-confrontation), slamming shut senses and good sense. When wounded, withdraws and introverts (often with excessive rumination, imagination working overtime, worry, moodiness). Drawn to the imaginative, surrealistic, and creative. Genius, if present, coexists with a deeply, visibly disturbed character.

SUN in LEO
Competitive, strong, proud, authority, command. Quiet dignity, nobility, elegance. Seeks to control own myth or legend. Distinctive personal style. Holds forth (or holds court!), can “own the stage.” Natural hub of attention. Loyal, generous, nurtures talent, improves lives. Sexually lusty, playful. Hates weakness, hypocrisy. Realistic, pragmatic idealist.

Sun octile Venus (1°00')
Charming, gentle, fine companion. Strong in friendship. Aesthetic appreciation. Most comfortable in marriage or similar relationship. A little vain.

Sun octile Eris (1°12')
A disruptor to the established order and conditions (curious, trickster, mischievous): Open to outlier possibilities. Navigates chaos with practical advantage (leaving a wake of chaos: has little native resistance to disorder).

MARS in GEMINI
Bright, inquiring; forthright, decisive (strong opinions). Argumentative (debate, stirs conversation; eloquent?). Pragmatic (not idealistic). Methodical. Scientific mind hones facts, can commit mind to research (scientists). Gains strength from being heard; otherwise over-compensates. (May “know better than anyone else,” need to be right.) Substance abuse.

VENUS
Venus square Uranus (1°32' mundo)
Pleasure drives are free of social convention or taboo, allowing enjoyment from a wide variety of social and sexual experiences. They approach friendship, love, sex, and other pleasure on their own terms, with a deep instinct for flexibility and freedom from artificial constraint. Socially popular, friendly, engaging, and well-liked, in response to their lightly flirtatious, genial, roguish style. (Their social “character” often masks underlying innocence and vulnerability.) Often requires distance from intimacy or depersonalizes affection, which can strain conventional pairings. Usually optimistic for society’s future with a deep instinct toward a less Puritanical, more open social fabric.

Venus square Neptune (2°45')
Idealistic, future-looking, longs to be enchanted. Wants things perfect. Can become jaded, disillusioned, and cynical from repeated hurtful betrayals. Emotions run strong. Most sees the beauty in people and things, thus has blind spots (especially in romance). Trusting, naturally confident of others’ goodness (poor discrimination in selecting friends). Good-hearted, caretakes others, devoted friends, romantic, humanitarian. Natural people-readers (when not personally involved), natural psychologists.

OUTER PLANET ASPECTS
Uranus conjunct Neptune (2°00')
Wanderlust, curious explorer, drawn to peek or push past horizons. Colliding realities and social revision impact the life. Rules have not been discovered for one’s life (maps not yet drawn, “nobody knows what my life is like”). Mythic, ritualistic sense of one’s position in the universal scheme (need to discern one’s role). Knows that life and reality are more mystical and inscrutable (or just plain weird) than anyone ever said. High-strung, sensitive, easily agitated.

Jupiter trine Saturn (0°40')
Practical, sensible. Responsible, conscientious, patient. Earns one’s own place. Balances gain and loss: what is won from losing, what it costs to win (politics, finance). Tuned to tradition, orthodoxies; cornerstones of their circles.

Uranus sextile Pluto (2°27')
Feels unbound by convention or authority; will challenge or dismiss them. Seeks new ideas, new ways, more options. Strong opinions; easily provoked to share them. Restless, impatient, frustrated (angry). In youth, often seems without direction (this usually resolves with maturity).

Saturn octile Uranus (1°36')
Autonomy firmly defended. Self-willed (acts out). Resists persuasion, makes decisions on own terms (cantankerous, obstinate). Hard to pigeon-hole, thinks and acts outside of stereotypes. Much of their life is about “holding it together” (some succeed, some don’t).

[ChangeMaker0806]

Wow! thank you so much, much more in-depth than I ever would have imagined... I never heard of this before "you are a LEO with a PISCES style, costumed as a LIBRA." I suppose this puts a lot into perspective based on the attributes you have provided me - it is pretty spot on. I truly appreciate you taking your time out to share this with me,

I have heard this "Most truly themselves when being someone else" - do you think this is something that is changeable? I feel like this was more prevalent in my younger years.

Thank you again.

[Jim Eshelman]

I quickly looked over the three or four main predictive systems for a given year and found a few themes repeated. Numerous indications boil down to two things (that probably are related): (1) A lot or restlessness, antsiness about where you are in your life, maybe not being entirely sure what you want to get away from but pushed (from the inside out) to get away from something that doesn't fit anymore. (2) A recurring sense that old answers have worn out their welcome, that ways you had sorted out life don't really fit anymore.

While this is caused by specific factors in your transits, progressions, directions, and solar return, there is also a broad fitting for the this stage of your life. The time from 26 or 27 up to 30 is one of the most pivotal in our psychological development. Among its most common characteristics are that definitions and structures we've put together over the prior 12-15 years (as we were moving toward adulthood and figuring out who we are and how the world must be) tend not to fit anymore. They're too small. (We were too small when we composed them.) There is a lot of skin-shedding. Depending on the choices we've made thus far and how flexible we are in reassessing them, there may be a lot of struggle in this process, or it may go more smoothly. Either way, you've entered a several year stage of molting.

Transits show interesting and generally positive themes for much of the year. Uranus has been opposing your Jupiter (it was exact in April), which often awakens our best while giving a bit of luck. Saturn takes turns with Uranus in aspecting your Jupiter, which will mark periods of challenges, perhaps tighter money or at least having to work for everything you get, with the strongest periods being May and August. Some times of life flowing more smoothly and some extra luck or relief come from Jupiter opposite your Sun especially through June and July.

[Jim Eshelman]

I have heard this "Most truly themselves when being someone else" - do you think this is something that is changeable? I feel like this was more prevalent in my younger years.

This isn't necessarily a bad think, y'know. I don't know if you act, perform music, or otherwise express yourself as an entertainer, but you have the chart of a diva (I mean this in both the best and worst senses of the word ). The three strongest things in your chart (four or five of the five strongest things in your chart) describe the character of a flamboyant entertainer (though that could be used in many senses).

Yes, of course, if there is some expression of that trait that you want to change, you can. I do think, though, that Fagan was quite right that Pisces Moons really love having a double life, a secret identity, a side of themselves not well known; and its easy to use this to advantage in many careers including different forms of entertainment.

[ChangeMaker0806]

I am not much of an 'entertainer' I actually strongly dislike being in the limelight, it causes an immense amount of anxiety. for example, I love to teach... but I get tongue-tied quite often when I am put in a predicament of being around people, especially if I do not know them...
I love to paint... I wonder if that could be the 'entertainer' portion of me that it refers to? the word "flamboyant" throws me off because I would never think of calling myself that.. lol.

This side of people that are not well known to people is not well known to myself either

[ChangeMaker0806]

Hi. I am relooking at this and wanted to re thank you. This is very accurate

[ChangeMaker0806]

Hi again,
I was curious if you could assist me… I feel stuck, repeating patterns and feeling lost and like I will never be happy. Mostly related to career and friendships. I go into everything in my life super excited then after the nostalgia runs out I find myself no longer interested. It causes me a lot of stress and I am curious if there is anything you see in my chart that could possibly shed some light in what I need to do or should be doing to break this pattern? I just don’t think I understand myself then I just want to avoid everyone and retreat.

I appreciate your help and thank you in advance.

[Jim Eshelman]

I'll look at this in the morning. Meanwhile, since the first answer, I've significantly revised the Moon in Pisces interpretation:
viewtopic.php?f=13&t=34#p153

[Jim Eshelman]

I feel stuck, repeating patterns and feeling lost and like I will never be happy. Mostly related to career and friendships. I go into everything in my life super excited then after the nostalgia runs out I find myself no longer interested. It causes me a lot of stress and I am curious if there is anything you see in my chart that could possibly shed some light in what I need to do or should be doing to break this pattern? I just don’t think I understand myself then I just want to avoid everyone and retreat.

Reading your question, looking over your natal chart and current patterns, and considering your exact age... It sounds to me like you're bored.

Sure, you've had an extra push toward "short-lived enthusiasms" as progressed Mars has opposed your natal Uranus-Neptune the last few years, but - even ignoring that, and looking at a combination of your native temperament and the fact that you're 27 years old, a few things seem clear.

First, you are at once of the junctures everybody passes through, the last two years of the onramp to your Saturn return. (Saturn completes one entire loop of the zodiac since your birth by spring 2024.) Several things can be expected from this. It's a maturing cycle, the real mark of entry into adulthood, when many people get the first real clarity on their place in the world and what they want to do with their lives. More or less everybody makes important life-direction choices. You get a little bit of a "report card" on your life, feeling a certainty of your competence in things you've done well, getting acknowledged by the world for those things, and at the same time getting some nudges or pushes (and an occasional slap) for things you haven't done so well.

Saturn means restrictions in the sense of definitions. Back in the 18-to-21-year-old stage, you made some initial decisions about entering adulthood, set some (likely unconscious) rules for yourself, probably created a life where you had the room to move and grow that you needed at that exact stage - but you've now outgrown those definitions and boundaries and structures. What once felt more spacious now feels too tight and restricting and narrow.

People tend to make initial decisions in the 18-to-21 period that they then reverse in the onramp to 30. In particular, some people pick a safe, protected, sure-seeming, follow-the-rules approach as then enter their 20s, while others take an adventurous, risk-taking, "open road" approach. Whichever path one picks, one tends to reverse it at 30: those who followed the rules and played it safe needing adventure and exploration, while those who took more risks and played it looser thinking it's time to settle down and pay attention to practical matters. - You created whatever life for your 20s that you picked, and I bet now it doesn't feel like enough. Think it through and see what patterns you can identify.

Most people feel restless, dissatisfied, and "this isn't really enough" in the two or three years approaching the Saturn return. You're right on schedule

Along with this, you are a Leo, a solar person. Strong solar energies carry an innate sense that you have something to do with your life, that you are a distinctive, particular person perhaps with a destiny you have to grab. During the first part of a solar person's life, this sense of direction and identity is especially a quest, a journey of seeking, a wandering whatever road you pick feeling curious and looking for answers to who the F you are. For most solar types, these answers, too, start to gel around the Saturn return, giving a new understanding for entering the 30s.

Finally, and perhaps most importantly, your strong Pisces Moon closely square Neptune and (even closer) Uranus suggests that you are easily bored. That is, you want life to be wondrous, fascinating, always bringing you new things and showing you delightful surprises. This is normal for you and there is no reason you shouldn't have that kind of life. With maturing comes a bit more practical attitude only in the sense of knowing you have to fit that in with other (practical, routine, maybe dull) choices you make, but this is no reason to deny yourself a fascinating, enchanting life.

You can get this in several ways. They probably all start with understanding that this is natural to you - to enjoy the novelty and enchantment of something and then move on; and also understanding that you don't need to confuse this with, for example, what you do for a living. You probably need to actively feed this Pisces + Uranus-Neptune side. Otherwise, you'll probably be bored, this boredom will cost you psychological energy and you may become depressed, and in any case you'll be dissatisfied and unhappy.

You'll probably be dissatisfied for the next couple of years anyway, because the objective truth is: You are correct that, at this moment, your life isn't all that it could and will be, that it's smaller and narrower than you want your world to be. You'll get there. Ironically, this "brooding and hatching" doesn't have to interfere with you having a more fascinating life.

You can, of course, find your own ways to do it. You may find this fascination in a relationship or some other activity. One approach many people find easy is to always take one or two classes at a local community college, perhaps as part of a night program. This need have nothing to do with a career direction (but might eventually), just something fun and fascinating and offbeat. Taking a class or two (which will end after a semester) is a form of diving into something interesting that you know will be over at the end of the class. It's not for direction, it's for fun - and to keep your mind and senses churning.

You'll probably also make some new friends along the way.

Mostly, understand that your life is a process that is unfolding a particularly important and interesting "plot point" right now.

[Jim Eshelman]

All that said, you didn't say much about the particular problems you've had around friends and career. If you want to say more, we can look a little more closely at particulars.

I also note that unhappiness in the specific areas of job, social connections, and satisfaction with yourself are the exact reasons people seek out psychological counselling. Maybe this is coming most to my mind because your post sounds a little depressed. Please understand that your current stage of life brings these exact issues forward for most people - it's quite normal. Nonetheless, don't neglect looking after your health, including mental health.

You probably will find that you are a fascinating discovery and exploration all by yourself.

[Jim Eshelman]

Also, we have a lot of Pisces Sun and Moon people on this site. They won't all necessarily see these posts but, if they do, I want to encourage all of them to jump into the conversation and share, from their life and wisdom, anything they see.

[ChangeMaker0806]

Wow thank you so much for this response! If it’s not too much trouble, can you tell me anything about what my Saturn return had in store for me?

[Jim Eshelman]

If it’s not too much trouble, can you tell me anything about what my Saturn return had in store for me?

I did that above, in considerable detail. (We don't run Saturn returns like return charts. It's just the conjunction cycle.)