Just your regular teen's crush ♥
Posted: Wed May 10, 2017 2:45 am
Originally posted by myself on Thu Apr 21, 2016 11:51 pm while I was madly in my Neptune-Venus transit. 
All times of postings are in MYT/UTC+8.
Okay so if you've been reading the thread about Venus returns earlier today you might've read about me and my crush. I probably said bits and pieces about him in other threads too, like my relocation thread.
*Story time!* [Comment 10/05/2015: Seriously? Story time? Boy, this transit got the whole of me.]
So you know, it was my 16th birthday and I was browsing through facebook, and all of a sudden I wanted to know all the other facebookers who had the same birthday as me, for fun. So I searched for posts which had "#october20" in them. There were some campaign posts, graduation posts, "today's my saddest day" posts (I srsly pitied them—don't want anyone to be sad on my day!), and then came the birthday posts. In one of them there was this post where my crush (he's an hispanic/latino btw, and I thought that I'd love a white man
) posted a selfie of him, before going out to drink for his bday party (Yes, he has the same birthday as me!). He looked fine in it, and because of that I wanted to view his profile. Bam! Came him and another lady posing in his cover photo—I thought they were a straight couple—I immediately got turned off. But I still went down his profile, and eventually I got to know that the woman was his bff and that he was gay. This was the point where for no reason I got a mad crush on him. Days followed thinking about him and soon I was getting butterflies in the stomach, and I was sleepless because I can't stop looking at his gorgeous face (okay now I admit I'm a bit bored with his face but I still like it anyway), and making plans about going to Dallas someday, starting out as being friends and let time take its own course. He is a hairstylist, and I searched about them on how they work and stuff like that. Because of him I got really concerned in keeping my hair in great condition—now my hair lice is now gone (I got it from my sisters, okay? Not my problem that I got it in the first place) and I adequately shampoo my hair.
And mostly what happened later wasn't much of significance because it was about the same. Then when Pluto transited my SVR Moon I missed him greatly, and since Pluto is still doing that, I'm still missing him, though not as much when Pluto stationed on my Venusian Moon.
And the worst thing is that he doesn't know me. It's torture.
He was probably born in his hometown, Merced, California. His birthday is the 20th of October, 1989. Sadly I still cannot find his birth time. Oh, I wish I knew it.
With noon as his unknown birth time:
He has the Sun in 02°45' Libra, but that changes if his birth time is far from noon
His Moon is likely to be in Gemini, but if he was born in the last 10 minutes of the day then he would have Moon in early Cancer. That would certainly help me cuz it would aspect my Sun!
LAYER 1: ASPECTS:
My Mars conjuncts his Uranus (0°14)
My Sun conjuncts his Sun (about 1-2 degrees)
My Jupiter aspects his Sun (depending his time, it's about 2-3.5~ish degrees)
My Moon is conjuncted by his North node (about 2.5 degrees)
My Venus squares his Venus (about 3.5 +/- degrees)
My Pluto squares his Venus (about 4-5 degrees)
None of his planets conjunct my angles, not even Venus (sad!) but his North node is slowly coming partile to my progressed angles.
Interestingly if I move to Dallas his Mars would be on my MC, and if we meet at LA, his hometown (or even ideally, Las Vegas), his Venus would square my Ascendant!
LAYER 2, PART 1: Assuming that I'm a transit chart, what type "event" am I for him? (excluding angle transits sadly)
Pluto somewhat widely squares his Venus and will square it partile in the long run. He might be passionate but I wish his Venus or my Pluto was closer.
Neptune somewhat widely squares his Sun, and will not anymore. Some confusion about his role on me, perhaps?
Uranus squares his Pluto, by more than a degree, applying. Very transformative indeed, reevaluating his life. It would be good if he accepts the change? (accepts me?)
Saturn-Pluto partile. Ouch. Hope I'm not a burden to him! I guess I shouldn't be so hard on him and let his sense of autonomy be, as long as it's in control?
Jupiter-Sun. Phew, a relief. Since my Jupiter is in retrograde, and will cross over his Sun again, would that count? I guess in the long run?
Mars partile conjuncts his Uranus. The closest transit. Ooh, definitely explosive, daring and sexual. A bit stressful?
Sun conjunct Sun, moderately. Technically (and symbolically) I'd be the day before his birthday haha.
Could I be his new "SSR", bringing significant changes to his life?
Venus squares his Venus moderately and will square it in partile, given some time. A good time indeed.
Mercury has aspected his Pluto and will aspect (if there's any relevance in this) his nodes. Is it that I'll be like (because of Mer-Pluto) "Do you love me or not, I got other things to do.", or I 'll come to his life after a significant confrontation has been made to him (by whatever it is) ?
And lastly Moon will conjoin his north node. Symbolically it's a pleasant time, events quite personal in nature also a period of favour, popularity, and an exceptional amount of support from others. Though as a transit it won't last long, if its effects occur in the first place.
LAYER 2, PART 2: He as a transit to me
Pluto partile transits my Saturn. Again, ouch. But I may experience a "breakthrough" because of him though. Pluto also just finished transiting my Uranus, to not return again, but I'm sure it's effects will still affect me someway.
Neptune does nothing but has passed my Vertex some time ago, to never return. Not sure of Vertex's significance in equatorial regions though, most of us here would have the vertexes at Leo-Aquarius, and even frequently, at Virgo-Pisces. My Vx is at Pisces.
Uranus partile conjuncts my Mars, the tightest transit. Very physical, active, adventurous, rebellious, sexual and the like. I like the idea of it.
Saturn does nothing. Phew! It also passed my Vertex, but even more recently than Neptune.
Jupiter just passed from squaring my Vx too, but it will retrograde and square my Vx again. If Vx works I hope it does for this one.
Mars does nothing.
Sun just past my Sun, symbolically it's the day after my birthday. He could be my new "SSR" too and bring changes to me? Sun also is moderately squaring my Jupiter and it's applying so it's good.
Venus just squared my Venus and Pluto and is now separating. It's rather mixed.
Mercury does nothing.
His nodes will soon come to my Moon (nodes move in Rx motion, right?) and symbolically a good time too, events quite personal in nature also a period of favour, popularity, and an exceptional amount of support from others (copy-pasted from above).
His Moon if he's born late enough in the day it will be squared by my Sun. I hope that's the case ♥.
LAYER 3: The extra stuff
Okay so there's some amount of partile static aspects between us, the one's which involve the luminaries are:
My Moon trine his Mars (0°38'). Surely I believe he's the more masculine guy in this one-sided relationship of mine, even though he's somewhat submissive too.
I was searching for a Venus-Uranus but it only came out as a sextile, at least it's a partile one! I'm Uranus.
There's also a Venus-Neptune trine, with me as Venus. Lol am I too suave and attractive for him? Amen. (without him feeling inferior of course)
Lastly Venus-Jupiter exists as a partile trine, with me being Venus.
Okay so our synastry is rather mixed with (I guess?) an inclination towards the good, but sadly Saturn-Pluto/Pluto-Saturn being paritle is not negligible.
Would like your views on our synastry too, and I'm terribly sorry if I bothered you with my childish, petty, puppy love problems, I intended to be humorous.
Also sorry for the long post. This wasn't intended to be that long though.
And I'm sorry again.
All times of postings are in MYT/UTC+8.
Okay so if you've been reading the thread about Venus returns earlier today you might've read about me and my crush. I probably said bits and pieces about him in other threads too, like my relocation thread.
*Story time!* [Comment 10/05/2015: Seriously? Story time? Boy, this transit got the whole of me.]
So you know, it was my 16th birthday and I was browsing through facebook, and all of a sudden I wanted to know all the other facebookers who had the same birthday as me, for fun. So I searched for posts which had "#october20" in them. There were some campaign posts, graduation posts, "today's my saddest day" posts (I srsly pitied them—don't want anyone to be sad on my day!), and then came the birthday posts. In one of them there was this post where my crush (he's an hispanic/latino btw, and I thought that I'd love a white man
) posted a selfie of him, before going out to drink for his bday party (Yes, he has the same birthday as me!). He looked fine in it, and because of that I wanted to view his profile. Bam! Came him and another lady posing in his cover photo—I thought they were a straight couple—I immediately got turned off. But I still went down his profile, and eventually I got to know that the woman was his bff and that he was gay. This was the point where for no reason I got a mad crush on him. Days followed thinking about him and soon I was getting butterflies in the stomach, and I was sleepless because I can't stop looking at his gorgeous face (okay now I admit I'm a bit bored with his face but I still like it anyway), and making plans about going to Dallas someday, starting out as being friends and let time take its own course. He is a hairstylist, and I searched about them on how they work and stuff like that. Because of him I got really concerned in keeping my hair in great condition—now my hair lice is now gone (I got it from my sisters, okay? Not my problem that I got it in the first place) and I adequately shampoo my hair.And mostly what happened later wasn't much of significance because it was about the same. Then when Pluto transited my SVR Moon I missed him greatly, and since Pluto is still doing that, I'm still missing him, though not as much when Pluto stationed on my Venusian Moon.
And the worst thing is that he doesn't know me. It's torture.
He was probably born in his hometown, Merced, California. His birthday is the 20th of October, 1989. Sadly I still cannot find his birth time. Oh, I wish I knew it.
With noon as his unknown birth time:
He has the Sun in 02°45' Libra, but that changes if his birth time is far from noon
His Moon is likely to be in Gemini, but if he was born in the last 10 minutes of the day then he would have Moon in early Cancer. That would certainly help me cuz it would aspect my Sun!
LAYER 1: ASPECTS:
My Mars conjuncts his Uranus (0°14)
My Sun conjuncts his Sun (about 1-2 degrees)
My Jupiter aspects his Sun (depending his time, it's about 2-3.5~ish degrees)
My Moon is conjuncted by his North node (about 2.5 degrees)
My Venus squares his Venus (about 3.5 +/- degrees)
My Pluto squares his Venus (about 4-5 degrees)
None of his planets conjunct my angles, not even Venus (sad!) but his North node is slowly coming partile to my progressed angles.
Interestingly if I move to Dallas his Mars would be on my MC, and if we meet at LA, his hometown (or even ideally, Las Vegas), his Venus would square my Ascendant!
LAYER 2, PART 1: Assuming that I'm a transit chart, what type "event" am I for him? (excluding angle transits sadly)
Pluto somewhat widely squares his Venus and will square it partile in the long run. He might be passionate but I wish his Venus or my Pluto was closer.
Neptune somewhat widely squares his Sun, and will not anymore. Some confusion about his role on me, perhaps?
Uranus squares his Pluto, by more than a degree, applying. Very transformative indeed, reevaluating his life. It would be good if he accepts the change? (accepts me?)
Saturn-Pluto partile. Ouch. Hope I'm not a burden to him! I guess I shouldn't be so hard on him and let his sense of autonomy be, as long as it's in control?
Jupiter-Sun. Phew, a relief. Since my Jupiter is in retrograde, and will cross over his Sun again, would that count? I guess in the long run?
Mars partile conjuncts his Uranus. The closest transit. Ooh, definitely explosive, daring and sexual. A bit stressful?
Sun conjunct Sun, moderately. Technically (and symbolically) I'd be the day before his birthday haha.
Could I be his new "SSR", bringing significant changes to his life?
Venus squares his Venus moderately and will square it in partile, given some time. A good time indeed.
Mercury has aspected his Pluto and will aspect (if there's any relevance in this) his nodes. Is it that I'll be like (because of Mer-Pluto) "Do you love me or not, I got other things to do.", or I 'll come to his life after a significant confrontation has been made to him (by whatever it is) ?
And lastly Moon will conjoin his north node. Symbolically it's a pleasant time, events quite personal in nature also a period of favour, popularity, and an exceptional amount of support from others. Though as a transit it won't last long, if its effects occur in the first place.
LAYER 2, PART 2: He as a transit to me
Pluto partile transits my Saturn. Again, ouch. But I may experience a "breakthrough" because of him though. Pluto also just finished transiting my Uranus, to not return again, but I'm sure it's effects will still affect me someway.
Neptune does nothing but has passed my Vertex some time ago, to never return. Not sure of Vertex's significance in equatorial regions though, most of us here would have the vertexes at Leo-Aquarius, and even frequently, at Virgo-Pisces. My Vx is at Pisces.
Uranus partile conjuncts my Mars, the tightest transit. Very physical, active, adventurous, rebellious, sexual and the like. I like the idea of it.
Saturn does nothing. Phew! It also passed my Vertex, but even more recently than Neptune.
Jupiter just passed from squaring my Vx too, but it will retrograde and square my Vx again. If Vx works I hope it does for this one.
Mars does nothing.
Sun just past my Sun, symbolically it's the day after my birthday. He could be my new "SSR" too and bring changes to me? Sun also is moderately squaring my Jupiter and it's applying so it's good.
Venus just squared my Venus and Pluto and is now separating. It's rather mixed.
Mercury does nothing.
His nodes will soon come to my Moon (nodes move in Rx motion, right?) and symbolically a good time too, events quite personal in nature also a period of favour, popularity, and an exceptional amount of support from others (copy-pasted from above).
His Moon if he's born late enough in the day it will be squared by my Sun. I hope that's the case ♥.
LAYER 3: The extra stuff
Okay so there's some amount of partile static aspects between us, the one's which involve the luminaries are:
My Moon trine his Mars (0°38'). Surely I believe he's the more masculine guy in this one-sided relationship of mine, even though he's somewhat submissive too.
I was searching for a Venus-Uranus but it only came out as a sextile, at least it's a partile one! I'm Uranus.
There's also a Venus-Neptune trine, with me as Venus. Lol am I too suave and attractive for him? Amen. (without him feeling inferior of course)
Lastly Venus-Jupiter exists as a partile trine, with me being Venus.
Okay so our synastry is rather mixed with (I guess?) an inclination towards the good, but sadly Saturn-Pluto/Pluto-Saturn being paritle is not negligible.
Would like your views on our synastry too, and I'm terribly sorry if I bothered you with my childish, petty, puppy love problems, I intended to be humorous.
Also sorry for the long post. This wasn't intended to be that long though.
And I'm sorry again.
. And finding that all things are beautiful in some way, and loving beauty even more than you did.