Solunars by Aldebaran Sidereal Academy

Whichwitch wrote: Sat Sep 14, 2019 3:41 am I’m attaching my natal chart.

Jim Eshelman wrote: Sat Sep 14, 2019 5:53 pm BTW, WW, I've long thought that you and Veronica (Aquarius sisters at your core) would make great friends. I'm glad she answered so quickly above.

Veronica wrote: Sat Sep 14, 2019 5:55 am Hiya

I am sorry you are under stress right now. My life sounds very similiar in ways to yours. I cope with stress by prioritizing my responsibilities and letting go of things that truelly do not need my attention based on those priorities. Which can sometimes be easier said then done.
I dont know if you have done this yet, but you may want to look at your astrology chart for where you are currently living, as well as your natal chart. You have moved and that could make a dramatic influence on the angles of your chart and possibly be a factor in your current situation.
As for the feelings you expressed around how you are spending your time, when I feel similarly I have to push my comfort zone and just do something different, because what I had been doing obviously wasnt satisfying me.
Being between jobs can be very very stressful. I hope that you are able to find fulfilling work soon.

Jim Eshelman wrote: Sat Sep 14, 2019 1:01 pm WW, my sympathies. Two things clear from your chart are that (1) you'll never be comfortable being "ordinary" or with "ordinary" things and (2) you're going through a particularly rough patch right now - easily identifiable by astrology.

Your Sun is in Aquarius. One of the three words that describes this Sun-sign best is "unconventional." (The other two are "scientific" and "inclusive.") It's natural for you to be provocative and controversial with broad interests yet tending toward solitude, even alienation. This doesn't mean you can't be social - Aquarians love that sort of thing, but usually don't comfortably feel "part of the herd."

Ah, but then there is that rising Moon. Despite your instinct for expressing your individuality without social pretensions, your strongest planet is Moon. This ties you psychically exactly into that herd mind. Very strong in you is the common subconsciousness of all people - all life - if you don't make it conscious it can drive you a little batty. The whole world's mind is in your psyche, and unless you are conscious of this fact it's going to feel like (oh, let's say) a great deal of psychological pressure rising up inside of you from strange and seemingly inexplicable places.

Let me give you an example. I also have an angular Moon (not quite as close as yours) and my Moon is in Aquarius (instead of my Sun, like you). I get really edgy sometimes if I haven't seen an extremely popular movie exactly in first run when it is riding the high-wave of popularity. Why? I've long ago realized that it's because the mass (collective) subconscious mind around me is filled with this and so it's in my mind even if I don't know anything about it. I have to see the movie to make it conscious, so that I am not inadvertently resisting that enormous force of psychic content that is like a wave moving through everyone. It will be in my mind either way, and I need to make it conscious and, at least briefly, submerge myself into it enthusiastically.

Friends, over the years, have been surprised that my tastes don't run to the move avant garde, or avoid anything mainstream and commercial, etc. The real answer is that I can't survive that way (well, I've gotten better over the decades, but still...) and I either submerge myself in that long enough to make it conscious and own it or I go a little crazy.

I'm not sure if this exactly aligns with things you've encountered in the balance of your Aquarius Sun vs. your angular Moon - which are, indeed, somewhat at odds with each other - but I offer it as an example to, perhaps, give you something to think about.

Jim Eshelman wrote: Sat Sep 14, 2019 1:03 pm Now, concerning that "rough patch" I mentioned.

Your Moon is at 18°41' Virgo. Your birth horoscope and local (Oregon) horoscope Ascendant and MC run from 15°18' to 21°35' of Virgo-Pisces and Gemini-Sagittarius. Transiting Saturn is currently at 18°55' Sagittarius.

Transiting Saturn aspecting your natal Moon (which it is doing very exactly right now) basically means that practical matters do better than emotional ones. It feels somber, distant, cautious, with separation from nurturing, wounded pride, loss, and feeling misunderstood. Security needs increase. Others seem unsympathetic.

All of these transits exist to develop different parts of ourselves, e.g., this one to develop your emotional and practical self-sufficiency, to prioritize alone time and effort (even struggle) above social matters and ease. You can still dip into social matters and ease, but they won't come as easily or as often under this transit.

This placement of Saturn (square your Ascendant, crossing your IC) is also rounding the bottom of your chart. This is broadly recognized as the start of a new 15-to-30-year cycle. Have the last 7 years or so been more a time of withdrawing, turning inward, having released earlier priorities in your life and nurturing whatever comes next? Saturn crossing the bottom of your chart is part of a long cycle that plants new seeds and lays new foundations for things you can bring to fruition over the next 15 years, that will "break into the light" in about seven years - as I said, matters for the long haul. It's good to lay good foundations now, to pay attention to this time, to take seriously what your instincts tell you to create.

Or, as I summarize in my standard "stock" interpretation of this: Get your feet squarely under you! You are laying a foundation for the future. Long-range goals depend on how well you prepare now. Security and property issues are important now. Family relationships can be strained. You assume new self-reliance, and encourage it in your dependents.

This feels difficult to most people. It's rearranging and often leaves you feel alone, alienated. It's natural enough for you to feel strange, atypical, and outside the herd anyway. Perhaps it is reassuring that this is a specific process, continuing for a certain, clear period of time, intending to build a particular side of your being.

Saturn first moved into 1° of your Moon-Ascendant-Midheaven at the start of this year (January 2019) and will last leave about Thanksgiving this year. So yes, you're dedicating 2019 to this set of transits. Along the way, there are specific turning points where the effect may feel more concentrated but, in general, January to November 2019 is the time for this to work its way through your life and psyche.

Some of those specific concentrated periods (a few days either side of these dates): Saturn exactly squared your Moon January 20. There may have been what felt like a gap between 2/27 and 7/4 (when all three were temporarily out of orb), a chance for your psyche to rebound a little. Much of this is coming to a head right now because Saturn is stationary September 18 - we're already feeling it! - while squaring your Moon within 1° August 17 to October 19. Saturn makes the last cross of one of your angles November 16 and clears the whole patch around November 26.

Jupiter Sets at Dawn wrote: Sat Sep 14, 2019 6:59 pm I think you also went through this but with Pluto instead of Saturn a couple-three years ago. So it feels really familiar, but you're feeling more restricted by it because it's Saturn, not Pluto.

Whichwitch wrote: Sun Sep 15, 2019 7:37 pm

Jim Eshelman wrote: Sat Sep 14, 2019 5:53 pm BTW, WW, I've long thought that you and Veronica (Aquarius sisters at your core) would make great friends. I'm glad she answered so quickly above.

Hopefully I can meet Veronica at some point!