introduction, midlife career crisis / Uranus opposition
Posted: Mon Mar 27, 2023 9:54 pm
Hi Everyone!
I'm new to this forum but have been voraciously absorbing posts for about a week -- I feel like I know some of you already from reading so many of your posts I really appreciate the deep dives and civil discussion happening here, and I wanted to introduce myself but wasn't sure where to start. Being astrologers, I suppose discussing my chart would be a good start
I have been learning astrology over the last year or so and for fun have been experimenting with programming my own astrology software in Ruby. I've done a deep dive on harmonics, and Vedic astrology, and now have landed here in Western Sidereal which really makes the most sense to me (I'm a bit put off by the fatalism of Vedic astrology, and really love how Jim calls it "astromancy").
Here is my birth data per my birth certificate.
* May 8th 1979 10:57AM AHDT (GMT-9) Anchorage, AK (precise hospital location: 61N12'39 149W49'42)
(I'm quite interested in rectifying it with Topocentric Primary directions in the future, but trying to get Polaris running on my Mac has been a real PITA so far. Haven't tried installing TMSA yet either.)
So to start the discussion about my chart, I am nearing my 44th birthday and culmination of Uranus opposition transit. I also have Sun opp. Uranus (sort of a big "middle finger" in my chart ), and I've been describing the current Uranus transit as "bulldozing" my natal Sun in the 10th house (in forward and reverse ). I'm a polymath and have been struggling with finding a stable career as I have so any interests... music, computers, healing arts, and now astrology.
I was a bookish and shy child, deeply into computers and music, and ended up getting a degree in electrical engineering and computer science (hello Uranus), where I got into the electronic music / rave scene and specialized in digital signal processing for music and audio. I also have athletic tendencies (always imagined in a parallel universe I might have been a professional dancer) but had an inner battle of "jock vs nerd" in which the nerd won out (Mercury/Mars vs Venus?). I also have some activist tendencies for social change, and used to kind of get off on shocking people (Eris conjunct MC?).
For about 15 years I worked as a consultant doing computer programming, but eventually burnt out and returned to my passion for healing arts (learned Reiki in high school, went to massage school after college and did ongoing continuing ed in Rolfing, homeopath, energy anatomy, “we-space” practices, and loads of other esoteric stuff). Doing bodywork professionally led me to work with kundalini energy ("higher octaves of Eros", as I call it) and trauma clearing and breathwork. My hands-on practice came to a big halt during the pandemic as I was an unessential worker, and I moved into breathwork which I could do remotely.
On the other hand, working 1-on-1 feels somewhat unsatisfying to me… I aspire to work as a leader and teacher, but am also scared of it. I also aspire to invent healing technology that will help people on a larger scale.
Along with the career crisis, what’s been surfacing for me during this Uranus return is some childhood/karmic emotional baggage I still haven’t quite worked through yet. I have a strange existential chip on my shoulder where I can be really hard on myself and never feel “good enough”. I wonder how this might relate to my Cancer ascendant and Pluto and moon in Virgo?
On top of all this, I got married 9 months ago… and my husband and I are in the middle of selling our house and moving to Scotland where we will start a new life. Hoping to be there for my SSR. I think that will put me close to Uranus on Ascendant, Sun on Descendant, Node on MC trine Chiron. Pretty good for a healing arts / technology career I suppose.
If my mundoscope calculations are correct, my most angular planet is Venus (1º before MC in mundoscope, and partile square Vertex on the Meridian), which is also opp. Pluto. I also have natal Eris conj. Venus which I think does fit to my bold and frank attitude around sexuality.
I’ve heard some call nodal squares a karmic missed step / opportunity… I have Neptune square nodes. Curious if anyone has insight on that.
There’s also a loose square with Jupiter and Mercury which can lead to grand unfulfilled ideas and “speaking to chickens before they have hatched”.
Another interesting aspect is partile Saturn quintile Uranus. I think I read somewhere that this is a good aspect for astrologers?
Would love to hear any and all thoughts on my chart / situation. Thanks!
I'm new to this forum but have been voraciously absorbing posts for about a week -- I feel like I know some of you already from reading so many of your posts I really appreciate the deep dives and civil discussion happening here, and I wanted to introduce myself but wasn't sure where to start. Being astrologers, I suppose discussing my chart would be a good start
I have been learning astrology over the last year or so and for fun have been experimenting with programming my own astrology software in Ruby. I've done a deep dive on harmonics, and Vedic astrology, and now have landed here in Western Sidereal which really makes the most sense to me (I'm a bit put off by the fatalism of Vedic astrology, and really love how Jim calls it "astromancy").
Here is my birth data per my birth certificate.
* May 8th 1979 10:57AM AHDT (GMT-9) Anchorage, AK (precise hospital location: 61N12'39 149W49'42)
(I'm quite interested in rectifying it with Topocentric Primary directions in the future, but trying to get Polaris running on my Mac has been a real PITA so far. Haven't tried installing TMSA yet either.)
So to start the discussion about my chart, I am nearing my 44th birthday and culmination of Uranus opposition transit. I also have Sun opp. Uranus (sort of a big "middle finger" in my chart ), and I've been describing the current Uranus transit as "bulldozing" my natal Sun in the 10th house (in forward and reverse ). I'm a polymath and have been struggling with finding a stable career as I have so any interests... music, computers, healing arts, and now astrology.
I was a bookish and shy child, deeply into computers and music, and ended up getting a degree in electrical engineering and computer science (hello Uranus), where I got into the electronic music / rave scene and specialized in digital signal processing for music and audio. I also have athletic tendencies (always imagined in a parallel universe I might have been a professional dancer) but had an inner battle of "jock vs nerd" in which the nerd won out (Mercury/Mars vs Venus?). I also have some activist tendencies for social change, and used to kind of get off on shocking people (Eris conjunct MC?).
For about 15 years I worked as a consultant doing computer programming, but eventually burnt out and returned to my passion for healing arts (learned Reiki in high school, went to massage school after college and did ongoing continuing ed in Rolfing, homeopath, energy anatomy, “we-space” practices, and loads of other esoteric stuff). Doing bodywork professionally led me to work with kundalini energy ("higher octaves of Eros", as I call it) and trauma clearing and breathwork. My hands-on practice came to a big halt during the pandemic as I was an unessential worker, and I moved into breathwork which I could do remotely.
On the other hand, working 1-on-1 feels somewhat unsatisfying to me… I aspire to work as a leader and teacher, but am also scared of it. I also aspire to invent healing technology that will help people on a larger scale.
Along with the career crisis, what’s been surfacing for me during this Uranus return is some childhood/karmic emotional baggage I still haven’t quite worked through yet. I have a strange existential chip on my shoulder where I can be really hard on myself and never feel “good enough”. I wonder how this might relate to my Cancer ascendant and Pluto and moon in Virgo?
On top of all this, I got married 9 months ago… and my husband and I are in the middle of selling our house and moving to Scotland where we will start a new life. Hoping to be there for my SSR. I think that will put me close to Uranus on Ascendant, Sun on Descendant, Node on MC trine Chiron. Pretty good for a healing arts / technology career I suppose.
If my mundoscope calculations are correct, my most angular planet is Venus (1º before MC in mundoscope, and partile square Vertex on the Meridian), which is also opp. Pluto. I also have natal Eris conj. Venus which I think does fit to my bold and frank attitude around sexuality.
I’ve heard some call nodal squares a karmic missed step / opportunity… I have Neptune square nodes. Curious if anyone has insight on that.
There’s also a loose square with Jupiter and Mercury which can lead to grand unfulfilled ideas and “speaking to chickens before they have hatched”.
Another interesting aspect is partile Saturn quintile Uranus. I think I read somewhere that this is a good aspect for astrologers?
Would love to hear any and all thoughts on my chart / situation. Thanks!