Avi's Transits 2019

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Tue Jan 29, 2019 12:42 pm

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Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Tue Jan 29, 2019 1:12 pm

Yes, Saturn squares my Sun in February as well.

The good news is I've been ruling out or resolving one health issue after another and just got a clean report from the one doctor who was still worried about anything, so I'm not likely to get too blind-sided.

In the past, Saturn transits to my Sun have been strengthening in the sense that the universe expects 10 times out of me what it usually expects, I feel baffled how I could possibly manage, and then out of raw necessity I grow to meet it and leave stronger. From this came my aphorism that the best way to handle a bunch of overwhelming problems is to get a bigger problem.

I'm not sure I have the energy to do that the way I did in my 30s (or whatever. Of course, that could be the approach of Saturn's transit to my Sun.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Tue Jan 29, 2019 1:19 pm

Yes, that's how I've felt about Saturn for the last couple years.

It occurred to me the other day that her malefics to my chart, Saturn and Neptune, are the same ones in my natal. Which is why they feel so familiar.

I don't know *if* I can overcome Saturn. I certainly won't be able to every time, forever. But I can do my best, which is more than I imagine.

Veronica · Post by **Veronica** » Wed Jan 30, 2019 5:12 am

Jim Eshelman wrote: Tue Jan 29, 2019 1:12 pm Yes, Saturn squares my Sun in February as well.

The good news is I've been ruling out or resolving one health issue after another and just got a clean report from the one doctor who was still worried about anything, so I'm not likely to get too blind-sided.

In the past, Saturn transits to my Sun have been strengthening in the sense that the universe expects 10 times out of me what it usually expects, I feel baffled how I could possibly manage, and then out of raw necessity I grow to meet it and leave stronger. From this came my aphorism that the best way to handle a bunch of overwhelming problems is to get a bigger problem.

I'm not sure I have the energy to do that the way I did in my 30s (or whatever. Of course, that could be the approach of Saturn's transit to my Sun.

My dad had a saying when anyone complained of a booboo.
"Would you like me to punch you in the nose?"
No said everybody, why would I want you to do that?
"Your nose would hurt so bad, youd forget about your little booboo"

I have always felt a strong love towards Saturn. It aspects my Venus. Its a beautiful planet with pretty rings around it. When I read and think of the hardships and trouble and challenges it can bring I remind myself that the first word used to describe Saturn is Law. As long as I keep that in mind as life is giving me a challenge I do ok.
I learned not to pray for strength because then I attract situations that challenge me. The idea being if I want to be strong the universe is going to give me situations to grow muscles. I pray to be loving now in situations that are challenging. The heart is after all the first muscle.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Wed Jan 30, 2019 11:45 am

Yes, these are good attitudes.

I'm definitely in a period of growth. I've been lifting weights, and getting bigger and stronger, and it just occurred to me that if heavy weights aren't Saturnine, I don't know what is.

Similar to Jim's aphorism, I've said about bicycling: "the best way to shrink a hill is to ride up bigger hills"

Thank you both for reminding me not to take the somber mindset too seriously. Seriously enough to do well, yes. But not so seriously as to be daunted.

I have a Saturn-Venus transit coming up March 16-June 15, so I'll keep your quote about the heart being the first muscle in mind, V.

I think people run away from difficulty because their afraid that their investment will not pay off, and will have gone to naught. But thinking about it from a growth perspective sidesteps that anxiety. Every day spent mindfully with difficulty adds to our ability to meet other challenges.

And some Jupiter Neptune might be handy for taking on daunting tasks. Maybe unreasonable optimism is just the shot of courage a person needs to get themselves in over their head, and be forced to learn how to swim.

Veronica · Post by **Veronica** » Wed Jan 30, 2019 3:35 pm

Avshalom Binyamin wrote: Wed Jan 30, 2019 11:45 am
And some Jupiter Neptune might be handy for taking on daunting tasks. Maybe unreasonable optimism is just the shot of courage a person needs to get themselves in over their head, and be forced to learn how to swim.

Wow Bro that last paragraph hit accord with me, with my jupiter/ neptune conjunction aspected by my angular sun.

So many people point out my unresonable optimism, but it part of who I am. I do feel like I swim so deep chopy waters.

The universe doesnt play dice.
The universe wants you to succeed and is always on your side anything but is just an illusion. You can take that to the bank.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Fri Mar 08, 2019 12:15 pm

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Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Fri Mar 08, 2019 12:21 pm

As usual, when I look at your reviews and reports I think: Isn't this stuff fun!

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Fri Mar 08, 2019 12:24 pm

It is fun. Especially when I don't treat it as an anxiety-salvo of trying to predict the future, and instead think of it as a curiosity-piquer of previewing potential themes so I can embrace the future.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Sun Mar 17, 2019 7:26 pm

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Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Sun Mar 17, 2019 7:51 pm

I'm sorry it came down that way

It's OK to feel knocked on your aff when you were.

As you said, she seems scared. In that sense, it's not about you. (I know it would suck for her to say that, but I think I can get away with saying it.)

There are other ways to use Saturn's transit to your Venus. (In fact, if you'd picked those - being distant, working too much, being unavailable - this likely wouldn't have happened like this. I'm not saying you should have picked them, but I think you can see that it would have led to a different result.)

Your February 22 Lunar Return was quite nice, with Jupiter rising in 0°09' mundane square to Moon on MC. Also, Jupiter on Neptune keeping you happily in the spell. Jupiter in the SLR is 0°02' from your natal Ascendant. Great start to the month!

Then your March 8 Demi-Lunar brought Saturn-Pluto to Descendant. (Pluto 2°57' below, Saturn 6°03' below.) Your Saturn is just pass IC, so I'm betting if I did the heavy math we'd find Saturn-Pluto mundanely square your natal Saturn. Not a good fortnight for relationships.

Your next Lunar Return, March 21, continues with the Saturn-Pluto (especially Pluto) plus some Uranus. There's a secondary strong factor for sex but not anything that suggests closeness. More like withdrawing for a while. (Your Pluto is on IC squared by the Saturn-Pluto.)

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Sun Mar 17, 2019 8:21 pm

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Lance · Post by **Lance** » Mon Mar 18, 2019 7:26 am

I just know Saturn to Venus isn't any fun.

Take heart, man.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Mon Mar 18, 2019 8:15 am

Thank you. I'm alright.

I'm practicing being resilient, taking care of my body, mind, and heart. It's a good period for solitude and mediation. I see a lot of the illusions I chased in the past, and how much fear's grip lingers on me. So, while it's uncomfortable now, it's something that I will grow from.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Tue Mar 19, 2019 11:32 am

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Lance · Post by **Lance** » Tue Mar 19, 2019 2:16 pm

And here we arrive at what appears to be another Saturn lesson: indulge yourself, and others will restrict you. Restrict yourself and others will indulge you.

Hmm... Very interesting. I may have to experiment with that myself

I highly respect and value your candor.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Tue Mar 19, 2019 2:34 pm

Thanks! I owe that to my Pluto-Pluto square.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Thu Mar 21, 2019 12:54 pm

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Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Thu Mar 21, 2019 12:55 pm

I should add, column is Angular Planets, and column 4 is Aspects to Angular Planets.

Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Thu Mar 21, 2019 1:20 pm

Avshalom Binyamin wrote: Thu Mar 21, 2019 12:54 pm (1) a dem-ilunar is the same as a lunar opposition, right?
(2) the most important things to track are, it seems, (a) outer planet transits, solar returns, lunar and demilunar returns. Is that correct?

Yes. Yes.

Anything else vital to add?

There's always something more

Secondary progressed aspects of the natal and the solar return are important, plus transits to SSR, natal, and progressed (of both) Moons ("the 4 moons") are standouts.

On the rest, I'll try to get back when I have time to go over it slowly. That are some clear "better months than not" in the line, from a quick scan.

Would you recommend leaving town for my 2019 Solar Return?

Yes, any year with transiting Mars conjunct natal Saturn (partile) just off an angle is a year worth getting out of town. How about Salt Lake City for some escapist pleasure, and dropping down to spectacular Zion and (my favorite) Bryce Canyon national parks - but stay away from Moab and other locations in the eastern half of the state.

Progressed SSR Moon opposes your Venus three months after your birthday.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Thu Mar 21, 2019 2:34 pm

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Mike V · Post by **Mike V** » Thu Mar 21, 2019 6:38 pm

Lance wrote: Tue Mar 19, 2019 2:16 pm
And here we arrive at what appears to be another Saturn lesson: indulge yourself, and others will restrict you. Restrict yourself and others will indulge you.
Hmm... Very interesting. I may have to experiment with that myself

I highly respect and value your candor.

I second all of this.
Very grateful for your honesty, Av. Very relevant to my life as well.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Thu Mar 21, 2019 10:04 pm

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Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Tue Apr 02, 2019 1:40 pm

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Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Thu Apr 04, 2019 9:24 pm

I came home from work today and noticed the cat food dish was full. I realized I hadn't seen my cat, Adam, this morning--he's usually sleeping somewhere, so it's not always a surprise to miss him during the morning rush.

I realized he most likely slipped out when I carelessly left the door open the night before. He's an indoor-only cat.

I search the house, couldn't find him. Oh shit, I thought. Here's more Saturn-Pluto. I judged myself for being careless with the door lately, thinking he was too chicken to sneak away. Worry. Guilt. Sadness.

Annabelle and I went looking for him in the neighborhood, and our big backyard, but couldn't find him. She made a wish on a dandelion puff. Yesterday she informed me that you can't tell anyone your wish or it won't come true. I knew what she was wishing for anyway.

I put out a dish of food, a cardboard box with a blanket, and a tupperware of his dirty litter to guide his nose back home. And then did my evening bedtime routine with my daughter. She was afraid something happened to him, but I cuddled her, and she fell asleep.

In the darkness of the bedroom, I criticized myself for being careless. I thought maybe I subconsciously sacrificed my cat for another relationship, by making him the Saturn-Pluto manifestation. I berated myself for being such a sad sap that I can't even take care of a cat, woo a woman, have an age-appropriate amount of money in my 401k, or have much to show for my life, etc. You know, the usual not-good-enough nonsense.

Then, I remembered I needed to make my daughter's lunch for tomorrow. I got up, and went outside. He wasn't in his box. I called him with his special little chirpy squeak that he always responds two. I didn't expect anything. After the third call, I saw a dark form emerge from under my car. Adam! He's safe and sound, next to me on the couch, after a 24-hour kitty rumspringa. I can't imagine his gentle fluffball self had much fun.

I'm so relieved.

The time was 8:48pm.

Demilunar April 4, 8:48pm

Angularity:
r. Pluto 4.38
t. Uranus 5.54

Aspects
t. Saturn square r. Pluto 1.58"
t. Pluto square r. Pluto 2.04"

Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Fri Apr 05, 2019 7:11 am

So glad that had a happy ending.

I can easily imagine the vacuous abyss in your gut while that was happening.

SteveS · Post by **SteveS** » Fri Apr 05, 2019 7:13 am

I love stories with a happy ending. Its something about the Spring air which draws indoor-cats outside for longer times.

Fri Apr 05, 2019 7:38 am

So glad your cat is home, safe and sound.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Fri Apr 05, 2019 10:08 am

Thanks all! *hearts*

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Fri Apr 05, 2019 1:33 pm

And, in other news, J (my coworker/bff/love interest) reconnected for the first time in a week, as predicted, and I reassured her that I'm ok that she needs time apart to focus on work.

These lunar and demilunar returns are a new, interesting tool!

Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Fri Apr 05, 2019 2:01 pm

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Fri Apr 05, 2019 2:19 pm

(new to me, obvs!)

But it is valuable to see the effect first-hand.

Transits to SSR Moon = transits to the Moon's position in an SSR, for the year
Transits to Natal Moon = to include inner planet transits? the rest would already be tracked in outer planet transits, right?

Transits to progressed SSR/Natal moon - is there a place to read about/understand what a progressed moon
Secondary progressed aspects of the natal and the solar return are important - is this different from "the 4 moons"?

Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Fri Apr 05, 2019 2:28 pm

Same. 4 = natal & progressed, solar & progressed

Especially watch Mars to these.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Fri Apr 05, 2019 3:13 pm

Thank you!

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Mon Apr 08, 2019 3:08 pm

I also realized I forgot to look into my demi-solar return, which should be about today.

I don't have solar fire, and I don't know where to find a free demisolar chart, but it's been a good day.

Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Mon Apr 08, 2019 3:28 pm

If it helps, I've stopped being impressed with demi-solars except for the specific purpose of narrowing which quarter of the year best manifests the SSR symbolism.

Your April 5 Demi-SSR looks a great deal like the current Arilunar, with Mars setting, Mercury-Neptune on IC, and a Moon-Pluto sq. See the Arilunar here:
viewtopic.php?f=46&t=2854

This puts your Mars on Asc 5° from op. transiting Mars. If the chart is operative, it should be very easy to tell very fast.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Mon Apr 08, 2019 3:51 pm

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Lance · Post by **Lance** » Wed Apr 10, 2019 10:30 am

You go, man!

TheScales_BothWays · Post by **TheScales_BothWays** » Wed Apr 10, 2019 11:36 am

Avshalom Binyamin wrote: Mon Apr 08, 2019 3:51 pm Well, I did have the sexiest weekend I've had in a long time.

I'm still on my libido reset (21 days since ejaculating, or viewing porn/erotica), but Jeannie and I had a marathon weekend of cuddling and love-making, finally consummating (as heteronormatively defined) our four-month-long sexy flirtation.

I didn't notice this post. I usually keep track on a lot of threads here pretty well, including yours.

Anyway, congratulations!

Here's to honest, open feelings and shared love.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Wed Apr 10, 2019 11:42 am

Thank you!

Work is crazy for both of us, and she's going on a week-long work trip to UK this Saturday, so as usual the important transformational growth element of this relationship is me learning to love more independently and securely.

I am in the middle of a Mars-Pluto octile transit, so it's tough not physically expressing my love and desire right now. I'll be spending my energy at the gym.

TheScales_BothWays · Post by **TheScales_BothWays** » Wed Apr 10, 2019 11:49 am

Avshalom Binyamin wrote: Wed Apr 10, 2019 11:42 am Thank you!

Work is crazy for both of us, and she's going on a week-long work trip to UK this Saturday, so as usual the important transformational growth element of this relationship is me learning to love more independently and securely.

That's great.

(And you're welcome.)

Do your charts in particularly show anything for this event? (For the "consummation" of your relationship that is, haha.)

Avshalom Binyamin wrote: Wed Apr 10, 2019 11:42 am I am in the middle of a Mars-Pluto octile transit, so it's tough not physically expressing my love and desire right now. I'll be spending my energy at the gym.

Gym should make good use of your Mars-to-Pluto transit. Especially in your current libido reset. You'll have lots of energy, but of course, be careful not to overwork yourself and your muscles.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Wed Apr 10, 2019 12:23 pm

TheScales_BothWays wrote: Wed Apr 10, 2019 11:49 am Do your charts in particularly show anything for this event? (For the "consummation" of your relationship that is, haha.)

For Sunday (I guess the actual moment would be around 10am-12pm, in a larger window of eroticism and sensuality starting the night before) her transits were:

t Sun square r Moon

and her longer, ongoing transits:
t Pluto square r Pluto (partile Feb 25 - Jun 26)
t Neptune octile r Venus (partile Feb 15 - Apr 10)
t Uranus conjunct r Venus (partile Mar 15 - Apr 21)

Mine were:

t Mars square r Venus
t Mercury square r Neptune and ASC

and my longer, ongoing transit:
t Saturn square r Venus (partile Mar 16 - Jun 15)

I interpret that to mean that the ideal, unconsummated crush phase ends with her Neptune Venus transit, as our connection turned into practical reality. But she still needs extra independence, at least until after her UK trip and bday, where she will feel the full effect of missing me for a week. And she still needs extra introspective alone time through June, with her Pluto transit.

And for me, the ongoing Saturn Venus square will continue to test my love for two more months.

So, just because something profound has shifted, doesn't mean that we're moving straight into a traditional relationship.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Thu Apr 11, 2019 11:23 am

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Lance · Post by **Lance** » Thu Apr 11, 2019 1:44 pm

I don’t have any recommendations, but I appreciate you posting your model for approaching such transits. I learn from it.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Fri Apr 12, 2019 9:12 am

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SteveS · Post by **SteveS** » Sat Apr 13, 2019 1:00 am

Avi wrote:

Anyways, I hope this has been infotaining. I get really embarrassed at being so blabby about all my personal things, but it helps me to type them here instead of acting on them, and hopefully it will help anyone who recognizes themselves trapped in a fear/thought-complex.

Avi, I really like how you are implementing the astrological factors in your life to transform your negative thoughts back into positive thoughts with positive attitudes for the future. IMO, you are allowing the best possibles outcomes to manifest for you in your life with your future.

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Wed Apr 17, 2019 11:31 am

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Post by **Jim Eshelman** » Wed Apr 17, 2019 12:22 pm

Keep us posted, please. This is kind of exciting to watch.

Marion just had a new SLR that has only natal planets angular - no transits to have a voice. Her natal Mars-Uranus is on MC, her Mercury-Saturn to the horizon. We're watching to see if this expression comes out during the month or if it's a "dead note."

Avshalom Binyamin · Post by **Avshalom Binyamin** » Thu Apr 18, 2019 11:30 am

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Avshalom Binyamin wrote: Thu Apr 18, 2019 11:30 am I feel like the hours leading up to a Lunar Return can be tense, esp. if the energy is more difficult, as I wait for things to shift.

Don't sit around and wait for the new chart to come in.