Natal sidereal birth chart

[PaulWildHerbWays]

Birth date: June 14, 1959
Place: Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, United States
Time: 0915AM
Source: birth certificate, conversation with mother

I am seeking any insight students and teachers could give regarding a sidereal reading for above.
Background: I came to astrology firstly via the visible sky, stars, planets, moon, sun. In other words, the majesty of the creation and all the sparkly lights moving about. I became enchanted with the tropical zodiac and became fascinated with the cultural richness of the zodiac story. At a certain time, close to year 2000, I purchased a random box of used books with many by Liz Greene, and popular astrological writers, including an Ephemeris. While i was fascinated by the depth of western astrological lore in these books, mythology and Jungian depth analysis, I was always perplexed by the visible sky being out of synch with the tropical astrological sky. My question would always center around, Why can't we use the actual visible sky?
Later I studied herbalism with several teachers, and independently came upon the writings of Nicholas Culpeper, English herbalist 1650's, who combined plants and astrology. While most modern western herbalism is hypnotically focused on dancing cheek to cheek with medicine, science, chemical constituents, standardized extracts, the BioSpirit heritage of the living breathing, in your face, plants were not, much like the tropical vs sidereal zodiac. I might add my herbalism also had this sidereal aspect, meaning, the teachers i studied with taught outside with wild native plants, field study in the American southwest, botany, rather than packaged purchased medicinal herbs. The other idiosyncrasy of my herbalism astrology personality-experience is that i am quite western traditional Christian Catholic, and have no desire to apologize or take on exotic forms, whether of dress, prayer, belief, foodstuff, although i was well exposed to yoga, Hinduism, living in an ashram as a young man. So as the guru was advising puja to Krishna after asanas, and sankirtan I was thinking, "Swami I'm fine with my cultural orientation, maybe we can head down to the local church for a Lenten Friday fish fry?
I would describe this tension, between western tradition vs "all the new diversity of foreign exotic" as the basic psychological roadmap of my life.
So any insight as to this in my astrological chart? why, a lifelong Catholic who went to Catholic school for 12 years, ends up in an ashram or Zendo with all the wrong incense, the wrong songs? Or as pill pushing RN registered nurse, I end up using elder leaf, elephant tree, yerba mansa, and lobelia to cure my CV19 February 2019 caught in the hospital?
Anyway thanks for any insight and God bless all

[Jim Eshelman]

LOL, Paul, welcome to Solunars.

So, you're saying you're a mix of stuff that doesn't a simple, orthodox story line, eh? Well, let's take a look.

I'll post some notes in the next comment (after I have time to work them up) to give you a summary of the strongest features in your chart. These will be brief - words intentionally picked to say as much as possible in a few words (your Virgo Moon appreciates precision of language, presumably). You'll find contradictions and reiterations - we are complex, and these notes won't be an attempt to sort out how all the pieces fit - but they should give you plenty to think about.

Back when I can...

[PaulWildHerbWays]

Jim, thank you so much. You have already given me an indicator, moon in Virgo, which i will look at closely. Blessings, may the lunar eclipse be kind to all.

[Jim Eshelman]

Venus conjunct Mars: Passion (in all senses), feels powerfully about things. Strong sexual passions mature early, continue late, rarely encumbered by too many conditions. Broadly fun-loving, socially active, loves romance: interesting, likable, sociable, horny people. Relationships, often picked for ferocity, easily hit conflict, strain, or burnout.

Venus on Ascendant: Charming, attractive, popular, friendly, gracious. Feels and responds powerfully, forthrightly; invested in experiencing, absorbing impressions. Flirtatious, affectionate. Loving, caretaking, mothering. Kind, considerate, averse to cruelty and harm. Stands against injustice (personal or social). Acts to reduce their own stress and friction. Needs beauty, enjoys “the good life.”

Mars on Ascendant: Independent, determined, persevering, self-willed. Aggressive, challenging, needs to win. On the go, needs to burn energy, impulsive (strong and untiring when young). Courage (physical and moral: forthright, outspoken, argumentative). Dominates, commands. Business leadership, competitive excellence. Strong sexual drives need frequent satisfaction.

Neptune on Nadir: Sensitive, vulnerable, feels strongly (tunes into others deeply, not always accurately; feels exposed, over-response). Naturally absorbs and mirrors others’ traits. Sympathy, compassion, empathy (or emotional drama, insecurity, easily hooked, betrayed). Lives in own reality, tenacious with their viewpoint, impervious to logic, passionate about what uniquely frames their view. Favors complexity over simplicity. Dwells within the unknown, choosing mystery over revelation.

SUN in TAURUS: Charming, good-hearted, tolerant, forthright. Loves peace, beauty, nature, comfort, simplicity. Devoted friend keenly understands people. Willingly vulnerable, open; feels things powerfully. Erotic (sexually, sensually, philosophically). Deeply loving parent. Prolific in all areas of creativity.

MOON in VIRGO: Mentally sharp, observant, curious, fact-driven, analytical, erudite, strategic (too serious). Intuitive. Service, devoted, contributing. Respectful, expects respect. Reason wrestles with emotion (stubborn, moody, nervous, touchy, worrying). Innocent, naïve (subservient). Victimized (abuse, ridicule, betrayal). Courageous and forthright.

Moon sextile Jupiter: Desires success. Drawn to quality. Good-humored, entertaining, kind, generous (natural host). Social elitism (may feign aristocracy). Strong beliefs (religious or patriotic intensity, morality, judgment). Often difficulty applying persistent effort.

Moon octile Uranus: Intellectually rebellious, roving, curious, inquiring. Not wholly comfortable with outside guidance. Original, futuristic, needing variety. Free-spirited: psychologically lives outside convention. Subject to tensions, emotional stress.

MARS in CANCER: Inner strength (prodigious imagination and fantasy) usually holds private demons at bay; but clings to old wounds (angry, acting out, selfish, retaliatory from old mistreatment). Breeds confidence, makes things happen. Loyal, speaks truth to power; but wants a chance to lead. Magnetic (passionate following?). Wants adoration sexually (otherwise: business-like in sex).

MERCURY opposite Saturn (mundane): Organizes and formats information in orderly arrangements. (Often blazingly quick thinkers once the framework is established.) Methodical, logical, often routinized thinking processes. Skeptical, scrutinizing (distrustful). Obstinate in the absence of new evidence. Hesitant until oriented, then decisive, e.g., learning starts slowly, then catches up quickly. Gifted with considerable mental power, but easily discouraged (doubting). Treats life seriously. Needs to learn how to play.

Mercury trine Neptune: Highly responsive to environment, sensitive to subtle impressions. Magnifies trivialities (perfectionist). Loves puzzle- or problem-solving. Curious about the unknown (mysteries, occultism). Dreamer, storyteller, can enthuse and persuade others.

VENUS in CANCER: Abundant feeling (heart rules head). Generous with affection, warm, nurturing (touching, holding). Needs to BE or HAVE a mother in relationships. Charming due to sexual charisma; requires adoration; loyal and devoted to friends. Home is an important sanctuary (appreciates luxury).